My 2010 Resolution

My mind constantly is in grind thinking about what to do next and how to get myself ahead. I always had this fire in me to be something and I could never define what that something is well I was when I was in teens, wanted to become a C.E.O. I bet most of us did. Its something that anyone can come up with because its easy to say to ourselves, Yes, I want to become a C.E.O. so what I want to do today is to get my mind out of this thinking rut and actually start focusing on what is achievable and what’s just wishful thinking. I am aware aiming for something so high takes a lot of discipline and a grain of luck but today I want to look into myself and see if this is really what I want.

That to me is a difficult task, because I wanted to be many things. I wanted to be a part time model while growing up. I wanted to be a social worker when I encountered helplessness. I wanted to be a traveler while I was reading Eat, Pray and Love which I should admit made a lot of impact on me and how I view my relationship. I wanted to married when I was single and I wanted to be single when I was married. I wanted to be an entrepreneur when I came to know about all my friends making progress in their lives.

All this time I only wanted, I never really did anything. I thought I was working hard and performing up to potential but sadly did I not realize that I wasn’t

I see a future for myself, but I clearly cannot visualize what it is. I wanted to start on my CFA prep for quite sometime now. Getting into the corporate finance group was what was on my mind all of last year. Now it’s the last thing I want to do. I want to be honest with myself. Do I want to give CFA just because I told myself 3 years ago that I want to or because I am passionate about it like how my husband is? I think not later.

I want to listen to myself every single day, pay close attention to how mind is thinking and how my thoughts are swinging with every changing moment.

What I realized now is that, the question what I want to become cannot be answered right away. It needs a lot of self retrospection and being honest with myself. As famous saying goes, Know what is achievable and what it not and the wisdom to know the difference.

So this year, I want to take it by stride. Not to fret over things. Take life as it comes. Give my best at work and let things unravel for themselves.

This is my 2010 resolution.

Happy and a Properous 2010!!!

One great year ended and another to begin, I look forward to a challenging and joyous 2010.

All the very best everyone :)

Payments..Payments...

Mr. Scorpio is getting ready for Business school, as exciting as it sounds its also getting me a bit worried. There are a lot of moving parts to our journey right now. Our immigration status has been in a state of flux for quite sometime now and I am not sure how it’s going to affect us once my husband starts the business school. The monthly payments are a kill. I really want to do something about those but when two people are involved, the decision making process slows down. I have been contemplating for sometime now about withdrawing money out of my 401K and pay it towards the car and bring down the balance to 6000 which I can pay off in 6 months. I am not sure what to do. The land and car payments are the biggest road blocks for me right now. I wish I could put that money towards savings instead of paying towards something that is not going up in value. I guess it’s the price we are paying for not making informed decisions. Ideally I would like to have only one payment apart from the rent before my husband starts to go to school. Not sure how I am going to tackle this problem right now.

Its Deepavali - The Festival of Lights

Today is Deepavali for us, what most people know as the Festival of Lights.. Its the day the Good overcame the evil. I logged in today to start blogging again..about my Finances,...but I have changed my mind. Instead of focusing on material stuff, I want to reflect on my life today , take a moment and Thank God for blessing me in so many ways.

Thank you for blessing me with good health so I can live every moment

Thank you for blessing me with an amazing family that love me unconditionally

Thank you blessing me with a job so I can provide for my family and take care of my loved ones

Thank you for getting the messages to my ear when ever I need them.

Finally , Thank you for the good food, air, water and home that you have blessed me with.

New Tires for my car - $640.. Ouch

Money Diary - Aug-20th

Hurried to a meeting at 9.00 and grabbed some breakfast on the way - money spent - $4.04

Grabbed some lunch at the cafeteria for $3.84 - tried something new today, it turned out to be a good meal and good price.

Came home early, @ 5 and went grocery shopping with hubby -money spent - $65

On our way back to the car, he and I discussed about how much we can save if we went to the local farmers market for veggies, though HEB has good stuff, its bit pricier, I usually spend around $25 dollars for my 2 weeks worth of vegetables. HEB is definetly the choice for meat though, fresh meat at an affordable price plus it comes from local vendors unlike other chains.

Hubby's fav dish Lamb curry is cooking on the stove right now.....

Total money spent today - $73 ..oouch....

Money Diary - Aug -19th

Breakfast at work- $ 3.46

Lunch - $4.24

Total Spent - $7.70

Reached home to my b'day gifts, hubby ordered 212 and light blue from Amazon. Love'em, another suprising gift - Kitchen Confidential from Anothony Bourdain, my fav- host on TV - He Rocks..!!!!!!